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Date / Time : Sunday, November 08, 2009 / 2:28 AM
happy memories indeed dont last long. i hate to say that, but its so true. i realised i have been living with lies, something that is so common. when i faced it, i pretend that its all the truth. cause truth hurts. i had enough of lies. but i have to continue that, just to .............. please, get me out of that.
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Date / Time : Saturday, November 07, 2009 / 7:30 PM
finished watching Hot Shot online. the show is so nice. i dont have to wait till 11.30pm just to watch a half an hour show. but this doesnt mean i wont stay up till 2 am going 3am. heheXD.
this two days has been heading down to help daddy. its so tiring that i cant have the time to think of anything. every day and every night, sleeping at 2 am. wake up around 10 plus 11. it goes on till the day when there is training. and thats the day i will start to get busy. planning bbq/chalet. 16112009- SC outing:D 17112009-19112009- the new batch of Student Leader's day camp cant wait to get involve in events so i can keep myself busy. you know i do, stillmissyou
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Date / Time : Wednesday, November 04, 2009 / 1:21 AM
how i wish time could pass quickly, till a day that i wish long time ago. 4 months ago, i have been hoping and wishing to ton outside. running away from home just for a day, to the beach. looking at the scenery, thinking and reflecting,it will be great. didnt have the chance soon thats bbq/chalet, and i cant wait. gonna stay out for one day. looking forward. :D
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Date / Time : Tuesday, November 03, 2009 / 1:20 AM
the first time i look into the sky, searching for a star or light. couldnt find any. was about to sleep, decided to try again, a little sky shining up high. everyday, everynight, a star can clear all thoughts. wont that be great? goodnight:D
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Date / Time : Sunday, November 01, 2009 / 9:20 PM
next is RENA HONEY! its been so long since i slack with her. it rmb the times we spend at Mt. Kinabalu. First night, share the same room with you. and the remaining nights with you too. the rides in the bus, with you too. You're like my sister when we're at Mt. Kinabalu. So memorable. those times, enjoy:D THANK YOU FOR: sharing with me the same room. being my partner over at Mt. Kinabalu. Being my Honey. and many more. . .. ... .. . THANK YOU SO MUCH! Loveyou<3
a friend of mine, that is very lazy. LOL. sleep only. i can still rmb those times when we have training at Tampines Stadium, and we conference the day before, till midnight. and we have to wake each other up and meet for breakfast at Tampines Mall Mac. Sitting on the floor in the toilet after every training, have lunch together after training. Slack at BBt. and many more.
Memories with her is hell load. cause she used to ask me out, but now. DONT HAVE LE :(
LOL
I wanna THANK YOU FOR:
being a great friend.
slacking with me after training.
those memories with you.
every chalet or bbq, staying over.
asking me out.
conferencing.
and many more
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THANK YOU SO MUCH!! my 4 years in LOYANG SEC was memorable. PLUS YOU, i know you since SEC1. So YA! THANK YOU!
dont really hang out much with her. different subject combination, dont have any classes that is same as hers. dont take Lit, so ya. Just wanna thank you for being part of the SC.
today seems like i cant MIA. just came home from DTE. watched Love Happens with Ori. a very meanigful and touching show.
the guy's wife die in a car accident. so he started to write books. to motivate people that lost their loved ones. he saw this girl. the girl tried to help him to do those things that he cant have the courage to do. when the wife pass away, the guy didnt go to his wife's furneral. the guy didnt have the courage to meet her parents. one day, he realised and he told the truth. he lied that his wife drove the car and in the middle of the road thats a dog and the car skid and bang the lamppost and instant death. he was the one that drove the car.
its a sad movie but i learn things from this movie. humans lied to make him or herself to feel better. thinking that it will make them move on. but inside them, they cant move on. its easy to say but hard to do. it takes a lot of courage to take the first step.
when i walked home, i thought of other things. people said that suicide is the most cowardly act ever. but i disagree to a certain extent. letting go at a point where you dont have to torture yourself anymore. continue the life, full of miserable due to different personality. anybody's life will end one day, its only now or future. but i agree that its cowardly act. running away from reality. foolish. just because of a small matter, you sacrifices your life for it.
from the different personality and dont want to get hurt anymore. i wished that someone could take my emotions away. so i cant feel anything. just like a stone, machine or robot. emotions can really bring someone to a extent that they die.
someone is gonna say im not wise, but its the truth.
have been updating both private and this blog. lots of post this few weeks. this blog is more for people to read. private blog is more for true feelings and thinking.
raining so heavily. lightning, thunder and heavy rain. i just finish walking in the rain. the rain hit on my face. im awake but my inner emotions are not. rain rain rain. thunder, loud. lightning, bright. emotions, lost. shirt, wet. hair, wet. sick, soon.
suddenly feel like listening to this song.
lyrics in english:
male: This love will not blossom I clearly know it yet I can't part with it
I know he is the one you love but I don't know how to shake off this struggling
female: "words I had wished to hear" you said to her instead my happiness thus vaporised
if pain is love's price then with sadness like sand how can I manage
today is my brother's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! Finally 12 years old. Congrats :D
i had this funny dream. the very first dream i can rmb. its kind of weird and funny. i dreamt that i score 15 points for N level. kind of weird and funny. i woke up and i started to laugh.
Joe Jonas and Taylor Swift broke up quite long ago, suddenly went to see the reasons both of them give. some sentence, quite meaningful. ' Anytime you are in a relationship for any length of time, there are going to be issues. Sometimes they resolve. Other times they lead to a change of heart." Quite true.
Watched Taylor Swift Music Video for Fifteen. quite meaningful also. :D
she can be BHB one. she's so cute and feel like pinching her cheek. she stays so far from Pasir Ris. And she's supposed to invite me to her house. But i dont know when then can go. :(
she's there for me if i need someone to talk to, but i dont really find her cause she have her troubles too. Didnt bother her much. Her maths need to buck up.!! :D
to S.U. thank you for being my bro. learn alot of things from you. will change to a wise person. those memories together, will be rmb. THANK YOU VERY MUCH. takecare:D
she's a good friend. she love music alot. Her ipod is full of songs. She perserve when come to training part. im the type, that give up halfway. she push herself till she finished. sometimes, both of us lazy run then slow down by abit. enjoy running with her, at least i had someone with me. Friends with her since secondary 1. Take the same subject combination. but different class.
im not close to her till ending of last year. Going to Mt. Kinabalu together. Photos over there. Memories. Those gossiping at night at the resort. So fun and memorable. :D
We have the same phone twice. Now still the same, Samsung Jet. :D
this crazy girl, i knew her like last year also. she only know how to laugh and laugh. everything also laugh. SIAO one! LOL. having a friend like her is great, she's smart and cheerful. when you feel stress, can go find her and talk. cause she will give you that kindof blur face and i will start to laugh. LOL. last year, went out a few times with her mom and sister. Enjoyable.
THANK YOU FOR:
making me laugh.
showing concern to me when im down.
the sweets and chocolate.
the box of chocolate as birthday present.
and more.
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THANK YOU SO MUCH, MY FRIEND!
SMILE ALWAYS, DONT LET ANYBODY MAKE YOU SAD. (you know you know.)
i started to get close to her when she had her Student Leader Camp. Where's the body, laughter. scary stories around the school. So fun. She's always there when i need someone to talk to but you know, im not that kind that tell people stuff till i really cant keep anymore. She's the best, those memories with her if i leave the school. Her laughter is funny and she cant stop laughing. I remember once, when i was damn down. i went into the SC room, they thought im someone and Danial Azman got a shock and Anne started to laugh. Once, i was trying to pack up after drawing in SC room. i wanted to put back the drawers, i couldnt push it in. Then i realised i put the wrong side. Those times being a SC was fun :D THANK YOU FOR:
lending me your costume for Racial Harmony Day.
being there for me.
brought laughter to me.
enjoy being a SC last year.
water bomb.
your contagious laughter.
and many more.
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THANK YOU VERY MUCH!
if i graduate, i will never forget those laughter and memories spent together.
a great friend of mine, a good runner. She is always there for me when i need someone to talk to or ask for comment. She's always there for me. We exchange our secrets with each other. Chat with each other when we feel bored or something to talk to. She brought joy to me when im running. She never fail to laugh, her laughter is so cute and funny. AND ALSO CONTAGIOUS!
THANK YOU FOR:
being there for me when i need someone to.
being the one that bring laughter to my life when im running.
didnt really hang out much till ending of last year and beginning this year. know her when we're in the first SL camp. but we didnt talk much. even though i didnt spend much time with her, but i can tell she's a good friend.
she love to run, run and run only. she also only know how to laugh and laugh only. Having her in Track and field/ Cross Country, its great. had lots of laughter, hope you enjoy yourself with us even though its your second CCA. i enjoy those chalets, bbq. Having you as my friend, its great. So fun, enjoy everytime after training, we sat in the toilet and chit chat. Those memories, i guess it wont happen already after you left. One person down. Come back and visit us, okay?
THANK YOU FOR:
bringing happiness when we have training.
sitting in the toilet and chit chatting.
coming for those bbq and chalet.
your presence in TAF, brought me laughter.
and many more.
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THANK YOU SO MUCH!! GOOD LUCK FOR YOUR REMAINING PAPERS!
she has been my close friend since she returned back to Singapore. Sitting beside her during MT class, enjoy. chit chat only. sometimes, she just listen to music and sleep in class. Enjoy being with her when it comes to SC events. Just so fun and it cannot be describe, the joy brought by her. can just make me laugh and laugh. Her laughter is so contagious. And i miss MY COW, SO MUCH!! LOL.
THANK YOU FOR:
listening to my problems when i need someone to talk to.
i just realised i didnt photo with her. OMGOSH!!! if i see you, im gonna take a photo with you as memories. shall use this photo as replacement for the time being.
Dorothy has been a cheerful friend and brought laughter when we had SC events. Enjoyed being with her. She's a DIY person. those cards from her, im so gonna keep it properly cause its from her. :D
know her through SC, we were not as close as now till end of last year or beginning of this year. started to do things together when we have SC events. Enjoy being with her, and doing things with her. especially the noticeboard. Enjoyed:D taking photos with her is even better, something unique and tried to take back the same one, but cant already. One and only photo:D
the photo above, i put as my wallpaper for a few months and i really love it so much.
THANK YOU FOR:
being my partner when we do stations together.
taking photos together to keep as memories when you graduate from this school.
many corners in the school, remind me of the past when we do things together.
knew her since im secondary 1, i guess. knew her for quite long already. a very blurr blurr person. LOL. her birthday is like 4 days after mine. quite easy to rmb.
my SC senior also. when we have SC camp, i will stick to her, cause i dont know anybody else when im only sec2 and the others and sec3. the first camp was the 1st SLC.
still can rmb last year, almost everyday look for her after school. a very good friend, sister indeed.:D
THANK YOU FOR:
celebrate my birthday.
watch with me my first NC16 movie, Year1.
most of the friday night, going out.
slacking with me after school.
playing mahjong at Lawrence's house.
walking to my house and enjoy the scenery here.
LOL.
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THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR EVERYTHING! MEET UP SOON. <3
the day i know her was when we're in Secondary 3. the first few days of school, didnt talk much to her. till one day, when she broke down at the back of the class.
so i went there to 'KPO'
so try to comfort her even though didnt know anything. thats when we start to get close.
had fun, laughter in class, slacking together after school with the small girl(YEESWEN)
enjoy her company till one period of time.
ARGUMENT!
till this year, we're back together.
even though we didnt spend alot of time compared to last time. cause someone got her partner. but im glad to spend some happy moment with her in class. when im sad and super down, she's there for me. comforting me, giving me tissues. so glad to have someone that is concern for me.
next is ANNE!
